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As everyone probably already know, I don't use this LJ anymore... I've moved to a shared account with the love of my life at saikaistory .

See you all there ^^ <3

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Erg... This is just GREAT!! This afternoon, I got a call from Kelly Services and they told me that I don't have to come back on monday because the stupid factory is laying off 23 temp workers, including myself. If you're planning on laying people off, why'd you hire the week before, smart-asses??

Jeez... Back to the starting... Fuck! I dunno how Im gonna afford all this shit now.

The employment services called me today. They have a job for me!!!

Starting monday, I'll be working at a car parts factory racking bumpers from 7-3 ^_____^ Happy days. Now to figure out transportation that early in the morning >.>

Arg... trying to decide whether I want to go to the dance practice tonight or not.

Me to Eddeh after Lina sent him her drawing... (Which is an amazing drawing btw)

Seiya Yagami (4:43:04 PM): How'd you like the picture, old man?
Winkiebubbles (4:43:08 PM): holy shit
Seiya Yagami (4:43:26 PM): How holy is the shit?
Seiya Yagami (4:43:29 PM): THIS holy?
Seiya Yagami (4:43:37 PM): Holy as the Pope?
Seiya Yagami (4:43:48 PM): or is it... Holy as the gum stuck in my shoe?
Winkiebubbles (4:43:48 PM): ITS AS HOLY AS THE HOLY WATER THAT COMES OUT YOUR ASS
Winkiebubbles (4:43:52 PM): hahahahahhaha
Seiya Yagami (4:43:55 PM): HOLY SHIT...
Seiya Yagami (4:43:58 PM): Now THAT'S holy
Winkiebubbles (4:44:25 PM): loooooool

Then I go to Lina and show that portion of the conversation to her...

MitsuChickGTO (4:45:29 PM): AHAHAHAHHAA
MitsuChickGTO (4:45:32 PM): ><
MitsuChickGTO (4:45:35 PM): You guysss...
MitsuChickGTO (4:45:37 PM): so sillyy
Seiya Yagami (4:45:43 PM): How silly?
Seiya Yagami (4:45:46 PM): THIS silly?
MitsuChickGTO (4:46:17 PM): Hahahaa
MitsuChickGTO (4:46:26 PM): SILLY LIKE THE MONKEY THAT SLEEPS IN YOUR CLOSET
Seiya Yagami (4:46:42 PM): Oh shit... That's king of Sillies, yo

Nyarr... I sorta had no sleep last night, my body is so sore right now. I've been dancing since about 12pm or so. I have to re-learn my old breaking moves... I miss the old breaking days x_X Then again, back then I wasn't very good. I'm a lot better now at dancing than I was a couple of years ago. My hand hurts right now so I'm refraning myself from doing hard tricks like Flares and Stalls. (Oii, Eddeh, you'll show me your Flares right?). Getting a lot better at Popping but I need to be more creative x_X *Re-watches Kar's instructional tape*. Although it's safe to say that I may have gotten better at Freestyle than my teacher, Kar, to say the least ^^;; But I have yet to know for sure until I go up against him in a Dance-Off. Ahahaha... I remember a dancing game from Stella's house in California that her, Chi, and I were playing... Bust-a-Move: Dance Summit 2001, it's so hard... but damn... watching the dance routines from the game was amazing. Found a really really nice song from one of my old tapes that I found after cleaning my room =) *Points to Current Music* Must... come up... with routines.

Took a break for a bit, talking to Huy and Chi =) I miss Michi lots... .__. Wish she was here... Last time I've seen her, she was really taken by my dancing and acrobatics... XD So cute.

Anyways... despite yesterday for being so damn gloomy (I'm sorry, everyone... and especially you, Chi... ._.), I'm feeling a bit happier now. I'm taking up my favorite hobby again, my friends are there for me, and my girlfriend being supportive for me. I figured... I have nothing to be upset about anymore... The only thing that possibly upsets me right now... is not having a job... and the fact that I still have to wait 2 months for Chi to come over and visit. .__. Sigh...

Yay... Such a crappy lonely day... .__.

Hahaha Yesterday was pure jokez!!

I went to Mississauga totally unplanned... my dad wanted to go visit my aunt in TO, so I tagged along... There, I met up with Edward and Ameer at SQ1 bus terminal. Ameer was on a buying spree... Dear God, I don't even remember everything that he bought that day. The wallscroll and the speakers are the only things recall XD

Anyways, we were walking around SQ1 trying to find a few things that Ameer needed. Hahaha we ran around Wal Mart so much that day trying to find the electronic section. We were thinking of getting Michi a webcam, but err... nothing for MAC ;____; so that was a bit of a disappointment. There was also a guy who looks like some mexican dude from California that I know who shall remain nameless following us around from Wal Mart to the Sony Store... Creepy... o_o

Ed and I walked in Le Chateau and found the jacket that I really really want... looks like Min Woo's o_O OMG it was only $69.99.... I really really want it ;__; I'm hoping to buy it before TAC or April... or something... or sometime before AN even, to show Carolina LoL.

After that, we took the bus down to Dundas and because Eddeh's transfer ran out, we decided to just walk it to Chinatown. Wheee.. that was a good half an hour walk =D There, we went for dinner at the Vietnamese restaurant that we usually go to. Since I refuse to have some pho before Michi gets here (Kind of a promise I made to her and myself... I'll explain later), I ordered rice. So did both Ameer and Ed. Dear God, I need to get the chicken next time *__* so good... not like in Sino mall food court where they kinda undercooked it... Eww...

After dinner, we went to Sino mall and looked at wallscrolls... Ameer wanted the Sephiroth wallscroll that was on display but we couldn't find it, so he had to settle with Evangelion wallscroll... I was torn between the poster or wallscroll of Shuyin and Lenne... The wallscroll is SOOO nice ;___; for only $14.99 too... but I needed to save my money so I just settle for the poster. Wheee.. Lenne reminds me of Michi.

After buying the poster we walked to Ameer's house just to say hi to his mom LoL Then walked back... since Im gonna be picked up in an hour or so. We spent the time planning for AN and Otakon and stuff. Ahahaha... We were planning on walking around the hotel at night with our girlfriends and have a piggyback race... that we called "Chocobo race" XD Why? Because Eddeh has blonde hair that looks like a Chocobo hair when he doesn't style it... and I'm planning on getting wicked blonde highlights soon... hopefully last me til AN =) but yeah... hahaha. It was fun planning these things. Then we got to the subject of... humping Hahahaha! Don't ask! XD So wrong... the wrongest things are there.. hahaha. and we even discussed what makes fangirls crazy at cons, etc. Oii x_O

8:30pm, I got picked up by my parents and we leave for home... Ed and Ameer walked home, and talked to them for a bit after we all arrived home. =)

It was a great day, you guys... Thank you.

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Remember when I said my parents bullshit about playing favorites? ^^; Yeah, it happened again... BIG time. < Sarcasm > Heh, thanks, mom... You can stop making excuses now... You make me feel so fucking special! < End sarcasm >

If anyone's wondering where I am tonight, I just went out for a bit to let off some steam...

Sigh...

Wow... What's up with my mom lately? She's been more angry and spiteful than usual... especially to me and my dad... He couldn't stand it so he's been sleeping downstairs on the big couch these past few days. It pisses me off when parents say they don't play favorites, but here I am getting bitched at one second then I see her being lovey-dovey with my brother the next. Rawr...

On a much happier note, Michi, Wayne, Carolina, and Edward has been the centerparts of my days... Especially Michi... We've been spending countless of hours talking at night... some of our conversations were about future life and such... I hope it all works out. It should be okay... Because we're not in this alone. =)

Eddeh, you and your fat kid jokes! Hahaha... I miss hanging out w/ you =/

Oh yeah, it's Valentine's Day... Yay... what I would give to be with Michi right now... .__. Sigh...

Fusk...

I don't know what's wrong with me today... Nothing happened... just... feeling.... really...... empty..... and needy...... ._.

Damn it... is it April yet...?

Today, I heard Eddeh go "EHRRGG!!"

I had a great day... Started by waking up to an alright morning... to a better afternoon when my girlfriend talked to me from her school. She was between classes so she got online and we talked. She made me really happy and loved when we talked about wishing we were in school together. We decided that.. when she's all settled up here, we're going back to school.

Later in the day, I was sooo hungry... x_X I had nothing to eat in the house for the whole day... and I shoveled the driveway for my parents and got really exhausted afterwards >< Then dad was kind enough to buy me some food. Hehehe.

Michi came home after school after I ate my dinner... We talked some more. This time, about our plans for the next few months regarding AN and PMX. ( After thorough brainstorming, we have things generally figured out... ) It may subject to change, but let's hope for the better. Michi is also planning to get a part-time job aside from being in school so that we can do this a lot easier... We're really excited about this and I know that we can do it, because we're doing it together!

I really hope it all works out well... Wish us luck. =)

I know I'm late on updating this but HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS!!! =D

Blarr... Life's been up and down with me lately. Especially with the last couple of days and all. Job hunting's been a bit slow lately, but I'm going back downtown to apply for some more places tomorrow... I'm right pumped up and I'm eager to make some money! (Kiss my ass, Lutherwood! I don't feel so useless anymore, stupid jerks! >/ ). Hoping to get Michi over here sometime before AN and plan future trips like PMX, AX, and Otakon. =3

Other than jobs, I guess other things like family and friends has kept me down lately. Nobody here in Waterloo except for maybe a couple of people out of my usual group of friends I haven't seen in a long time... Maybe they're busy with their own things, maybe they don't care about me, whatever. Life goes on... I wish you all luck. I was moping around about it for a while but I'm alright now after being reminded that I still have other people who truly cares for me even though they're so far away. My friends like Alex, Mauricio (Kyo), and Tim are probably the only Waterloo friends I have left. The rest of my friends are scattered all over the continent hahaha. Mississauga mostly... Welland, North Carolina, California... durr... Australia ^^;;;... You know who you people are hehe =D

Mom's pissing me off lately, but I'll rant about it in another entry... -_-;

Things have been kinda hazy lately with life in general, but I'm alot happier now... I have Michi to thank for that. ._. We stayed up all night last night til' this afternoon about 5 minutes ago talking and laughing about nothing like the lovers/best friends we are... We've had some tough times recently and it hasn't been like this for a good while, so I feel really happy about last night/this morning. I want us to stay like this forever ._. ♥

Hmm... Grandpa's birthday today, I'm going to Toronto tonight to celebrate with family... be back later tonight, though. =)

My friends have been dealing with tough times lately too, so I wish you guys luck... and I hope things turn out for the best. I know I'm ready to be there for you all so if you ever needed a friend to talk to, I'm here... as you all have been for me.

I also would like to thank Carolina, Ameer, Huy, and Edward... You guys are the best.

I feel rather productive today...

I applied to 2 other job-placement places. Hopefully, they get me somewhere soon... I need a new job, fast. ._.

When I got home, I thought I'd shovel the snow off the driveway and do the dishes before my parents get home.

I feel really tired now... I had little sleep waiting for Michi to come online... Hm...

Lately, I've been really emotional and depressed. I've been put-down, rejected, and overall beaten down by people. It's not normal for me to really get upset about myself, but this time, I feel useless. I try to set things right but it backfires on me and bites me twice harder. I'm sorry for everything... I'm really sorry. I know I haven't been myself and I know I can be really bothersome and annoying. I just want everyone to know that, I didn't mean to. ._.

It's been almost a week since I've been back from Cali... I should write about my trip, but I really don't feel like it right now. Too down and depressed, sick about stuff... maybe next time...

Happy belated new years, everyone... @}-;-----

I really can't wait til I get out of here... Holy shit...

First of all, my mom gets home and right there when she sees me, she bitched at me about being "more responsible" and that I should stop doing stupid shit. We got into a 15-min argument for trying to defend myself because I don't know what the hell her friggin problem is. Because of that little scene, I forgot to tell her that my brother called to pick him up. Then she used that crap against me! I can't believe her... Jeez... how am I supposed to remember if she's continuously screaming at me!?

When my brother got home, he tells my dad that he wants to study downstairs now. Why? Because my "music was too loud and it disrupts studying"... He could've friggin told me and asked me to turn it down, but did he even do that?? NO! He's like "What's it matter? You're going to do it again anyway."... I told him "I'm sorry but... How the hell would you know!? Did you even fucking ask!?"... I have earphones, y'know! Jeez, for someone who studies so damn much, he's not exactly the smartest fucking kid in the world. As a result, I got in trouble with dad... and everyone in my family just pretty much ganged up on me all at once... So I just cleaned up the living room, without saying shit... gathered up all my stuff and went up here in my room... I don't want to see them anymore for the rest of the night.

Fuck! I just want to disappear sometimes... get away from them...

*Sigh* Rant-rant-rant... all I ever fucking do... I'm sorry for all of those who bothered to read all this... ._. But sometimes I just wanna let things out...